Boo!!! A weight gain AND a late post. I'm 0-for-2 with no good excuses.
Actually I've been going between 57.1 and 56ish for awhile. Like a month, at least. I'm calling it a plateau. Luckily, this isn't a plateau that's physical in nature. Unfortunately, it would be easier if it was that. I would know that I was on the right track and I'd just have to keep on trucking a little longer before things got moving again. Or just add a little more oomph to my workouts or something.
It would have been much easier than having to admit that it's just me being lax on myself and not following the plan like I had been the month before. Instead of diligently tracking everything, measuring everything, planning things out, and choosing the better option, I was letting myself go.
Worse, even though I recognize this problem, I can't seem to stop myself from continuing! Sometimes, I honestly think I have some kind of eating disorder. I can literally eat nonstop all day. NONSTOP. That's not normal, right? I mean, even when I'm seriously crazy full, I can still think of food I want to eat. I should just try it one day and tweet it. It would be kinda like Supersize Me.
Right now, at this moment, I'm thinking about eating. And it's not just a nebulous idea about a future meal or craving. I've got the food and method all planned out. If this were a suicide risk assessment, I would be considered high risk since I not only have the ideas but a thought out plan! I would get up, peel one of the smoked and flavored boiled eggs I got from a vending machine (OMG so awesome, will post about that later!) and just down it while standing over the rice cooker scooping rice into my mouth with every bite of the egg. (Disgusting, right?!) Not even the shame of having to admit it on the internet is stopping me! (Possibly years of living on a constant guilt trip- I was raised in a Catholic household with Asian parents- has caused me to become immune or at least take shame as just an inevitable part of my life?)
So now that you know all my dirty secrets (which I guess is going to be a recurring theme in weigh-in Wednesdays)...now what?
Well, I'd like to move forward. My goal this month was to reach 54kg and with 2.5 weeks left, I think it's a little unrealistic. I'd like to adjust my goal to 55ish. Last weekend I hit 56.1 (sure I was a little dehydrated) so I think in 2.5 weeks I could definitely get to a number like 55.9.
Starting tomorrow, I will recommit to diligent point counting. I had tried the "simply filling method" for a week but basically failed at it...I guess having even fewer things to record just makes me more lazy. Anyway, back to the basics.
Later tonight, I'll be trying out some new Ashtanga yoga videos. (Sad sidenote: My favorite power yoga DVD was recently retired because the disc was destroyed.) I really want to join a yoga studio but it is prohibitively expensive. Like, insanely prohibitive.
For now, I think I'll have that smoked egg and some rice with a nice salad made from the leftover vegetables I used in the falafels I made for lunch. Can't start a a revolution on a (sort of) empty stomach.
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