Quick Chek Girl

This song came on while I was riding home from naginata practice today and it made me feel so...nostalgic. Honestly, usually, I don't get like that. I know a lot of people that create strong associations with music. I never really thought I did that. I mean, I love music and there are many songs that move me. But hearing that particular song on this particular night was just so...なつかしい...it means nostalgic but to me the word feels like something more than just nostalgic.

This song reminds me of friends that have long become such different people; of a time when I was a different person...or maybe even not yet a person, still something fumbling for an identity, an anchor, a niche. It makes me think of the first time I heard this album...a birthday present from Jeremy. Was it even a birthday present? I feel like it saved me from something...I don't know what. I guess this is the cliched "rock music opened my eyes" story.

It makes me think of long hot summers spent trying to stay cool AND be cool. It makes me remember how different I felt or maybe wanted to be from everyone else in (Catholic) school.

It makes me think of that time I was forced to miss Warped Tour and had to go to Disneyworld with my family instead. Haha. Or that time I DID go to Warped Tour and I blew dirt out of my nose for three days. The first time I dyed my hair. I remember that bus ride...my hair was green. I felt absolutely wicked. I even wanted to get a tattoo inspired by this band. It was supposed to be this:


But what is it about this song, this album, this band? I guess it just speaks to me. It makes me feel like...well, it makes me feel like everything's going to be OK. And I guess it's really withstood the test of time...26 year old me feels it as much as 12 year old me did.

Alas, I've never even seen them live. Can you believe that?! Maybe one day it'll all come together and I can see them. Rock on, Bouncing Souls...Rock on!